Five Ways My Miscarriages Changed Me

Those years of grief won’t be forgotten, and neither will those lives. I’m certain I’ll always remember their due dates, and the order of siblings that would have been, had we been allowed to have our children. I’m okay with reflecting on the dark times and feeling twinges of that familiar heartache. It gets easier, but it never goes away. It’s fitting to grieve what will never be. Read More

Moving Past a Miscarriage

Moving Past Miscarriage (image)

Immediately your mind runs to “What did I do wrong?” or “What is wrong with me?” Though the cause is almost always something that was completely out of your control. Read More

There are No New Ideas: Relating to One Another Through Blogging

new ideas

There is a very real explanation for why the internet is flooded with parenting blogs: so many of us are asking for and seeking the exact same things. A creative and personal reimagining of the same old wisdom, experiences, and ideas that many of us are facing in a particular season of life. Read More

4 Important Lessons I Learned Through Childbirth

lessons childbirth

I never expected childbirth– not actually meeting my child, but the physical act of bringing them into the world– to be one of my favorite, most defining life moments. I understand that many women don’t see it this way, and view it as solely a means to a beautiful end. That is okay! But as someone who is practicing finding teachers in the everyday, I realize that I learned a number of lessons in labor that apply to both childbirth and day-to-day life. Read More

I’m Not Sorry for Having a Nanny

I Am Not Sorry for Having a Nanny

Being a mother is not easy, I think we can all agree to that. From lack of sleep to constantly feeling like you are not doing enough, even with help it can be one of the hardest challenges women face. Read More

To My Second Child: I’m Sorry You Were Kicked in the Face

Second Child

Your life has brought us such delight and joy in many of the same ways your sister’s did, but with one exception: we realize, now, how fast it all goes, and that is powerful. I have no desire to speed your growing up, or to launch you headlong into your next milestone. I know that all too soon you’ll be calling me Mama and tearing through our house on your own two feet. That you won’t lay heavy and soft in my arms, reliant on my comfort, in the wee hours of the morning. Read More

Three Things I Wasn’t Expecting to Grieve in the Midst of Recurrent Pregnancy Loss

I am incredibly grateful that we live in an age where pregnancy loss is being de-mystified. Although there are many things about it that still aren’t understood, it’s talked about. It’s a discussion. More and more women feel comfortable coming out of the woodwork and saying, “Yes, we have lost children,” or, “We are having trouble getting pregnant.” I know I say this phrase a lot, but it’s healing, and writing about things that are healing is, in a way, my purpose. Read More

When My Daughter Asks, “Do I Look Pretty?”

Do I Look Pretty?

You smile with glee as you slowly spin and pat the dress that we just wrestled over your head. You point your toes out for another admiring look at your new shoes. “Do I look pretty, Mama?” you ask me, your eyes lighting up. Read More